If OCD, then Faith

Yesterday I had a meeting with the OCD therapist, and he wants me to do exercises where I think of a word I don't like and I experience all the emotions that go with it.  He wants me to do it twice a day.  This is so that I get used to that feeling, so I can go on with my life without the thoughts taking away from my life.  So far I have experiencing the suckiness of doubt, fear, anger, confusion, etc. But I am trying not to put meaning into it, but rather just experiencing what it is without judgment. Or I am trying to do that.

Blessedly, I experienced wonderfulness with my family.  It was so awesome, I haven't experienced that in a long time.  I am so grateful.  I then also experienced love for my children, which is what I truly want, even if OCD says I don't. 

I have hope in the Lord, and hope that I can live free from judgment and just live.

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