If OCD, then Faith

Yesterday I hit my lowest.  I felt what my thoughts said and that made me extremely sad and angry and bitter.  I can't understand why my Heavenly Father would allow me to suffer, when I know he has the power to keep me healthy. However, as my psychologist said, in a way, why let a thought or feeling that lasts a minute or two get you down for the entire day. 

Today was a blessing though.  I talked to my psychologist and he wants me to say "hit" outloud so that I realize that just because you say it doesn't mean it could come true. I think I compulsed less today, which makes me very grateful.  I did receive gifts of the Holy Spirit today, so that was wonderful.  

My mission is to not compulse as much and not give the thoughts any more thought.  

Thank you, Lord for today!