If OCD, then Faith

Although I had a better day yesterday and the day before, I still did have some good moments.  What made the day hard was all the disruptive thoughts I had about my dog and my children.  I just couldn't get a break. Again I just want to love my kids and feel the love I have for them.  Instead I experience doubt and worry, and a little anger for having to deal with this.  I had another if then statement: If you think the opposite of the thought then you believe the original thought.  Such a lie.  It would be such a miracle if I didn't worry in a day, or even in an hour.  

There were positive moments, like making cookies with my kids.  They enjoyed touching the cookie dough.  And one time I experienced the love I have for them.  That was wonderful.  I also didn't feel hate when my thoughts said awful things regarding hate.  So that was blessing. I have to remember I am loved and that I don't have to feel love to love my kids.  

I hope tomorrow is a better day.  I hope I have love and goodness that spills all over the people that I interact with! Love you Lord!