If OCD, then Faith

Although I did cry this afternoon, I overall had a good evening. I cried because I was tired of OCD.  I remember the days when I would do something nice for someone and then I would feel good because of it.  Now if I do something nice for someone, I might have a disruptive thought at the same time, stealing that joy.  I miss those days. 

Even such, this afternoon with my kids was wonderful.  I set up the like hammock swing under the table and both kids played in it. Then we painted and I read a book to J. The whole family did reflex integration exercises.  I love when we are all together.  My husband and I chased J. around the room, and he loved it.  He gave us both kisses today.

I did have disruptive thoughts, but mostly I had good moments too where the disruptive thoughts weren't as disruptive.  I believe it is because of my wonderful Heavenly Father. At work, the OCD was more controlled and I do believe this to be because of Jesus and his word. It almost seems that the only consistency I have had is the mercy, love, forgiveness, and kindness of the Lord.  Medicines and such have only done so much for me.  However, I am hoping that this medicine that I will be taking will make me well.  Anyway, thank you Lord for another good day overall.!:)