If OCD, then Faith

I have been taking my thoughts captive to Jesus or at least trying today.  I had less triggers today, so my harm OCD wasn't as bad, although I wasn't exposing myself either.

I read Joyce Meyer's "Battlefied of the Mind," and I liked it.  I certainly have done some of the widerness attitudes, like feeling sorry for myself, and doubting and worrying.  I hope I can come out of this disease and be cured.I know the Lord is using it to refine me and my faith.

I talked to my counselor today and he wants me to say words outloud that are negative to prove that what you say doesn't come true.  So far I am open to the words poke and slap and pinch.  However, I do not want to say darker words at this time.  I am still hung up on words have power.  I would like the Holy Spirit to let me know what is the truth. It would be a lot easier to do the right thing.

I got worried and felt I couldn't be a mom to my son when he's 5.  However, I know God will give me the strength for each day that I am blessed here on this Earth.  So it's stupid to worry.  

My wonderful Lord gave me love today, peace, and gentleness.  I don't have to be afraid.

Overall it was a good day!